My Testimony
I am a sinner, in need of a Savior. It took me 40 years on this planet to come to that realization. Yes, just like 40 years Moses and the Israelites spent wandering the desert. Those 40 years were full of disobedience and unbelief. I celebrated “me” and pursued the American dream that was engrained in me. My life centered around serving "my kingdom" and I was pretty successful doing that. This misdirected focus lead me to many things that I am not proud of, but mainly only resulted in harming myself and missing opportunities. At the time, I thought I was a good person, just wanting to peacefully coexist, do my thing, enjoy my life and pursue my needs....me...me....ME. God used my wife Cindy to reveal that there was another Kingdom. Just a year earlier God had audibly called her and she immediately turned to Him and craved His word with an insatiable appetite. For the first time, The Spirit in her allowed her to read and understand His Word. Living with her during that time was difficult, I resented her new love but at the same time longed for such a love and the new joy she was experiencing. Mine is not a miraculous testimony of shocking revelation, but more a story of God’s patience as he waited for me to come to Him. Unlike the Israelites, I don’t think God intentionally "punished" me in those wilderness years. Instead He allowed me to stay there, of my own free will. It took many years to get my attention, but what slowly sunk in was that God chose me. He wanted ME. He called me and was patient for me to come to Him and turn from my selfish pursuits. I realized that He wanted me but He doesn't want me to live for me. He wanted my eyes on Him. It was revealed to me that God sent His Son to forgive my sin, and to lead me down His path for my life, one that has a purpose much greater than me. I began to yearn to be in His will and obedient to what He has for me and my family. I slowly realized that I had grown tired of being in control and I wanted Him to be the Lord of my life. I still wrestle Him for control and sin against Him, but I can now turn from sin and to Jesus, knowing that I am acceptable to Father through His grace and mercy. At some point along the way, and I cannot point to the day or time, I surrendered my life to Jesus. This was an event that each year I realize more and more what a MIRACLE it was. I accepted Jesus, and some years later was baptized at the Church at the Crossing by Pastor Lee Brewer. He has been my mentor and teacher during a very important and transformative stage of my walk with Jesus, and God has used him to bring radical change to my life and to my priorities. My experience of living in a state of selfishness and lostness for so many years stirs within me an urgency and desire to share Him with others. To share him with those who don’t know Him or have not submitted to Him. The desire of my life now is to know Him more and to make Him known. Instead of me, I want the rest of my life to be all about Him. |
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